[haiku] Clutter

dadSo today we declutter

My husband and I

I found this painting

Canvased from my memory

Just two days after

I returned from my home town

 

It had rained a lot back there

for January

lots of people came

to commemorate his life:

our dad, her husband, their friend

 

The day after his service

We went to the mall

Debarking the car

Mom and I froze, stunned

 

Dead winter sky exposes

a rainbow’s promise

Offering us lasting hope

Of life hereafter

...

 Moment cast in time

Three years have since passed

Gave the painting to my mom

mem’ries don’t depart

clutter oh clutter

depart from my heart

 

letting go of attachment

to things  – not my dad

 

This year I will be [blank}ty

He’ll be ninety-four

Oh, would that I could, just once

knock and open heaven’s door.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Let it Rain

Lovemydad
Sideways These Days

The music of the morning rain

just beyond my window pain

massaging the land with repetitious splashes of moisture.

Varying degrees of timbre and pitch

a choral cacophony

Fitting that nature should join my hearts phrase

Memories echo of long ago days

How many gallons have poured from the sky?

Can you pay that water bill? Neither can I…

Picking up pieces just tears of my heart

placing them down again,

oh where do I start?…

What’s about this paradigm of a need to say goodbye

Why?

he never did,

why should I?

it used to have us complain “you never say good-bye”

 

#neitherwilli #guessitstuck  #noneed #stayawhile #ohmemorykeepmewarm

#lifeissidewaysthesedays #missyoudad

I’m glad it rained on this anniversary of your passing. #breathe

Coming up for air…

Picture courtesy of Kerry Pimblott

Thank you to Chape Personal Trainer for the kick-in-the-pants to post as it’s been quite awhile. I am responding in the moment.

1. What matters most to you? Cancer no longer being a household word and a good night’s sleep.

2. How much do you enjoy what you do for a living?  100%

3. What would be the hardest thing (physical) for you to give up? My loved ones.

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